I have never really been a girl who “wants her mommy” but it was time in my life where that was all I wanted. I wanted, desperately needed, my Mommy.
I was walking to meet a potential new roommate and I was truly a wreck. Not only had I broken up with my live-in boyfriend (hence the need for a new place), but I was embroiled in a spectacular falling out with my two best friends as a result of the break up. They were true believers in the “you can stick it out and make him change” school of thought, where I fell squarely in the “I need to get the fuck outta dodge ” camp. I was running, not stopping, not collecting my $200…saving myself. It was a dark time.
As I walked to meet this woman, Annie Birdie, I stopped and sat on a brick wall and called MamaBear. I needed a place to live and so desperately wanted her to like me. My mommy gave me a pep talk and off I went. Annie was, of course, great, we hit it off, and the rest is history.
The past two years with her have been two of the best of my life. I sometimes feel I barely know the person who walked in that door, defeated and raw. A lot of these changes have to do with her; she is way more than a roommate. She is a friend and confidant and a million more things that are too private to share here. She was just what I needed as I started my new life.
I couldn’t be happier that she got engaged a few weeks ago, but I am also heartbroken. There are a million things I will miss about her–the way she tells a story, the million bags she seems to carry to work, her refreshing candor, how she always makes sure we have plenty of ice cream–and I know life won’t be the same. I, of course, knew this day would come, I just didn’t think it would come so fast. I came to her broken and she was part of the healing. I hope her fiancee knows every day how lucky he is.
The night she announced her engagement, we made dinner. Sunday dinners are commonplace for us, but this one was bittersweet…it was ushering in an end of an era. We made this shrimp (delicious, simple, bright, and light) and watched one of the Sex and the City DVDs for the zillionith time. As we plucked the shrimp off the skewers, there was laughter and a sense of familiarity one can only have with someone who has watched you weep. I will miss those nights together, but know she will always be part of my life.
And I will always be thankful to my mommy, for forcing me to walk in to that apartment, to take the leap and trust someone else.
Grilled Ginger Lime Shrimp
from Cooking Light
1/2 cup fresh cilantro leaves
1/4 cup thinly sliced green onions
2 tablespoons chopped peeled fresh ginger
1 tablespoon fresh lime juice
1 tablespoon canola oil
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon dark sesame oil
4 garlic cloves, chopped
1 jalapeño pepper, seeded and chopped
1 1/2 pounds large shrimp, peeled and deveined (about 32 shrimp)
1. Combine the first 9 ingredients in a food processor, and process until coarsely chopped.
2. Combine cilantro mixture and shrimp in a large zip-top plastic bag; seal and shake well. Refrigerate 30 minutes.
3. Prepare grill (or grill pan).
4. Remove shrimp from bag; discard marinade. Thread shrimp on each of 8 (8-inch) skewers. Place shrimp skewers on a grill rack coated with cooking spray; grill 5 minutes or until done, turning once.